Pursued by grace.


We all have significant moments or turning points in our lives.  Moments in time when our decisions mark a change in direction and our life path makes a defined shift.  One of the greatest and most life-changing moments is the day we surrender our lives to the Lordship of Jesus Christ.  For me, that day happened at an altar when I was just 19 years old.

I grew up on the front row of the small local church my dad pastored.  I was saved and water baptized at a young age and learned to hear and respond to the voice of God before I was old enough to go to school.  Faith wasn’t just a one hour Sunday morning event, it was a way of life for us.

As I was growing up, I always felt like I was different from other kids, but it wasn’t until High School that it became so evident that I felt I needed to make a change.  Up to this point, I had been ok with not fitting in, but during those teenage years, I went from being the goody two shoes pastor’s kid to hardcore rebel.  I made a firm and monumental decision that my childhood walk of faith was no longer working for me and that it was time to take my life into my own hands.  I willfully walked away from God and turned my back on everything I had known and loved about church life.

During those years I did everything I could to fit in with my peers.  I wanted to feel like I belonged, for once in my life.  I wanted to experience all the things that they were experiencing right along with them.  I didn’t want to stand out anymore, I wanted to blend in.

With every step I took into that life I definitely knew better.  That gentle, nudging voice of the Holy Spirit was ever present whispering to me that I was made for more.  But every step I defied that voice I knew so well and allowed the voices of the culture around me to drive my free willed desires.  I thought it would be fun, but it was exhausting.  Filled with regret and hiding in shame I just kept going because I didn’t know how to come back.

After over four years of trying to do life on my own and making a complete and utter mess of things, I came back to Christ.  One day during a worship service a woman walked over to me and climbed up on the chair in front of me.  She took me firmly by the arms and looked into my eyes with the kindness of my Saviour himself and whispered the words, you are valuable to God.  I wrote more about that experience in this blog post.

In this short video, I share about this turning point for me, the moment I truly discovered God’s grace and began to walk on the path of faith he had laid out for me.  If you have ever messed up in life and wondered if God’s grace was enough to cover your failures, then this message is for you!


Brenda Drost is a Pastor and Speaker who is known for her warm smile and passionate preaching style. Whether she is teaching at her home church or out on the road, she loves to bring challenging messages that actually help people live out their faith in the real world.  She and her husband live on their farm in the beautiful Niagara Region of Ontario, Canada where they have raised their four children.   Find out more about Brenda here.